EMOTION EXPLOSION

Spoken word,
thats so unheard,
this is obserd,
call me a nerd,
for my mix of words that are preferred.
For my choice of lines that continuesly rhyme,
at the drop of a dime,
call it a crime,
im guilt cause all the emotions are mine,
they're as real as nine,
and as classy as wune.
Save the troubles of court and mail me a fine,
for having "EXPRESSION THAT SHINES!"
Dont you see its a sign,
this dream aint surreal listen its real and its my deal,
the hands been shook.
I still aint done,
that was only the hook.
Even if i wrote my life in a book,
still the picture would remain only a distant look,
of the thoughts in my mind,
as I write they unwind,
I allow my mind to rewind,
all thats writtens from inside.
I wont let stress knock my pride,
with my love by my side,
we will keep are heads heald high,
these are emotions that we cry!

The Destort Picture

-is this the last resort-the picture is destort-is it time to abort-my feelings i report- -i express without rest-to keep from becoming depressed- -the emotions are stressed-and seem more painful then death-

-writting is like a pill for my pain-and a treatment to keep sain-myself i remain- -through the pain in this game-the streets are the flame-
-the skys where i aim-im not asking for fame-
-i will be the lame-and take the blame-
-will we voice the same-and rejoice in the name-
-the world is hell-from hevean we fell-
-i refuse to dwell-cuz this earth we live on is hell-
-every minute leads to an hour-we have to make our power-
-theres no time to be sour-these words i devoure-
-standing as tall as a tower-

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I havent blogged in a while, not since I left Creative I guess. But I have had the urge to just havent had tha access. Things have been different since the last time I wrote and I even feel like my prospective on life is different. I am now more patient with struggles in life and the things that get thrown at me. I often find myself constantly reminding myself when I encounter struggles or lil bothers that make me mad, that first off: life is too short to spend it mad, and that being mad isnt going to do anything but cause more troubles to the situation as to where being positive will chances are help get you out of it faster. I find myself no longer dwelling or being angry about the things people in my age group say although I knew better then to let it irritate me and make me mad, I did but its wasnt, still isnt and never will be worth it. Expecially when I am all they are and more. Its not every day there are people who think like I myself do I have been lucky enough to find someone who does and to speak with about it, and speaking on these things about life doesnt make me just think about them I have been doing that but it help me and us both to live them. As we have been doing

WHY PROMiSE

WHY PROMISE

Why do we feel llike the only thing promised with TRUTH.. is LIES,

why do smiles promise crys?

Why does love promise pain,

and why does sunshine promise rain?

Why does friendship promise fights,

and why do days promise nights?

Why do we feel like the only thing promised with LIFE..is DEATH,

and why do we think until our final breath??

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I am so excited to see my brothers and enjoy some good food. For me my favorite part of the holidays is seeing family and spending that quality time with them. I don't get to see my family a lot aside from my mom and when I do they always seem to be arguing about one thing or another so I am looking forward to tomorrow and hoping that we can all just have a good time and enjoy each others company.

This year I would have to say I am great full for many things, my mother which I am always great full for but this year I'm excpecialy great full for hear because last year a little before this time my mom was really sick and I didn't know if she was ever going to be the momma she was before she got sick. So last year I was great full to have her with me and this year I am even more great full because she is back to the way she was before and its great that she made it through!

I am also great full for this school, without this place I wouldn't be graduating high school, I probably wouldn't even be attending school. Not only that I have learned so much about art and I have relized how importend art is to me. Also the teachers here, we (the students) are so lucky to have great teachers that build relationships with us that is hard to find in any other school. This is a place where the teacher are not just our teachers but our friends too.

A couple other things I am great full for is my family and friends, they pick me up when I'm down and push me to go some where when I am up, and I would have to say I couldn't ask for better family or friends. I feel I am a lucky person and to have these thing that I have is amazing!

TGIF

I am so happy that today is Friday, it seems like I have been waiting all week for this day to come.
Sometimes though it seems like I look forward to Fridays every week. My friend Joe goes back to the Navy this morning, I will really miss him but it was so good to be able to see him and spend some time with him. It has been so long since our whole crew has gotten together like we did! We all got to reminece on old times and all the stupid things we used to do in middle school. Its crazy how when your in middle school you think that you mature and grown but then when you really do grow up you relize that you were not even close to being mature or grown. Another thing that I find funny is that you live your life day by day and you just think oh same stuff new day but then you look back and everything is so much different. The world is a crazy place and the way life works is too...

Today I woke up feeling really tired and I must have slept wrong because my neck is killing me. I think I have come to the relization that other people are going to do what they do even if you dont want them too or try to talk them out of it. Its hard though when its your friend, I dont mean to seem like a parent or anything but I care. I dont want to see my friend have to go through the life lesson to find out that her plan might not work, but I have tried to discuss this with her and now there is not much more. I just have to sit back and see what happens and if she needs me give her my support.